8 weeks to go!!

Oh my goodness, 8 weeks seems so soon! Not mention that is all the way to 40 weeks. Who knows if I will go early or not. As excited as I am to meet this little girl and how not excited I am to keep getting bigger or more uncomfortable, I think this little one needs to stay in until she is fully cooked!! I need me a 7 plus pound baby and if she isn't by 37-38 weeks she needs to stay in a cook more. Its funny how your second pregnancy is so different than your first. Not just symptoms and what not, but your feelings towards things. For me with Rylee I was more just excited to know the sex at 20 weeks, but your second you could almost careless what the sex was and you are more worried and concerned that they have all their fingers and toes. With Rylee I was so into getting induced and wanted nothing more to have her come earlier than 40 weeks and then this one letting her come when she is ready without having to be induced is so important to me. That's at least how it has been for me:)
The past month or so I have felt very uncomfortable with my pregnant self! Was feeling fat, bloated, and was just very critical of how I looked. I definitely shed a tear or two, but for some reason the last week or so I have felt wonderful about it! I have the confidence back that I lost even though I am still gaining weight like crazy! I would hate to go to the doctor and step on that scale,but then I came to realize I was for sure under weight when I started this pregnancy journey so that meaning I am going to gain a little more weight than I expected. I started out at about 108lbs and as of last week I am at about 140lbs! Crazy difference but I am also excited that I have gained that only because if you know me I have always had a problem gaining weight and it is something I have struggled with for years. Yes just as over weight people have a problem with losing weight there are skinny girls that have had a problem with gaining. Its just as mean for a skinny person to call an over weight person fat or chubby just as it is for a someone to call a skinny girl too skinny. I have always hated being too skinny and as funny as this is I am scared to lose ALL of this weight. I gained 35 pounds with Rylee and by the time she was about 3 or 4 months old I had lost all the 35 pounds by literally doing nothing and I was right back to where I started,being too skinny. This time I have a different plan, i want to only go down to about 120lbs and no longer have that "Ethiopian" look. I want the tone and the shape that I have never had before. Its going to be hard, but I know I can do it! So that is my goal and I really hope to accomplish it:)
As for my pregnancy symptoms this month I have gone back to feeling very tired and will lay down with Rylee everyday and nap for about 3 hours. My back kills me at times, but not because I have a basketball in front of me but because I have bigger boobs than I can handle and to think they will go up another cup size when my milk comes in! I go through these sleepless nights and then all of a sudden I sleep like a baby. My cravings are changing a little bit from veggies to junk food. I have discovered mounds ice cream bars and they are the most  delicious things ever!! I still love my healthy food though, but junk food is definitely making its way back into my life. I get awful gallbladder attacks with this pregnancy, She kicks me like she is trying to get out and loves to hang out under my ribs. As awful as those can feel at times I LOVE them and wouldn't trade that feeling for the world!